You don't know what you have till its gone

When they say
You don't know what you have
Until its gone
You don't believe it
Until it happens

Sitting around
Wide awake and wondering
Questioning all that you have done
Thinking
Was it worth it

Your mind is so scrambled
And you feel like you know what is what
When it's all taken from you
That's when you realize
How one person was your world

Mistakes are meant to be learned from
And people are meant to forget and forgive
But you keep wanting more
And holding onto something
That is useless

Feels and wants
Can be doubted
But never actually changed
Even though someone has hurt you
You still love them the same

I miss and long for the past
That is no more
A part of my life I didn't see at the time
As the only thing I ever needed
Longed for

I miss hugs and kisses
I miss being told I love you
I miss having you around
I miss us

I fucked it all up
It was my fault and I can't change it
Now I'm left to deal with my own faults
And drown in the things
I should have known all along

Never will I doubt myself again
But now is to late
It will always be too late
And that's my fault I have to live with

I miss you